oh there has been much merry making and excitement over here the last few days.
st. nicholas paid a visit with some chocolates and goodies and hannah is in full swing with the nutcracker. we got to see her first performance on saturday and it was beautiful!
i shed many a tear throughout the show. my tears were of joy but also of awe, sadness and a bit of release.
this mama here has been a bit weepy these days and having quite a time excepting that my girls are growing up. i have been resisting it actually and it doesn’t feel good. i want to enjoy and embrace each stage that they enter and this weekend i had a bit of an awakening and decided to let it all go. and oh does it feel good!
and to make things even more joyous and celebratory we got snow! and a lot of it.
harry has declared that he is a snow dog. he was out in it for hours yesterday. we had to thaw him out by the fire.
the girls were romping around out there until 10 o’clock last night. you can see a few more adventures in the snow here.
today we make ornaments for our creature tree and head over to a friend’s house with a very steep hill in their back yard for a day of sledding.
what did you do this weekend?
your girls are about the ages of my three….. and this process of growing up and how we let go and hold on at the same time is uncharted territory for me…. i find myself teary as well. i like the idea of embracing what is.
I feel I’ve been on a similar path as far as having a hard time accepting this growing up business. This year marked a turning point for my biggest girl: no more doll play, no running down the stairs each morning for the advent, no dressing as fancy as possible for Santa pictures, etc.
It’s been a hard pill to swallow, but just yesterday as we meandered about the farm looking for our perfect tree, I admired her long, strong legs and the beautiful creature she’s become. It’s been a bit bumpy around here with two cycling women in the house now and I have to remind myself that hormones are a strong force that none of us is immune to. It helps me to think of all of the things she’s capable of now like pulling out a recipe and baking from scratch, taking our little one to the playground and helping her siblings with reading, math, etc.
How bittersweet this mama gig is!